Jason’s Tarot Journey

First a quick note. While shuffling the deck, few cards flew out. First group included King of Pentacles Reversed, Four of Pentacles Reversed and Nine of Pentacles. See a theme here? Interesting. Second group that flew out included Ten of Swords and Queen of Swords Reversed. The second group reminded me of Mom, so I called her right away. Her surgery was successful. They did more on her than expected. Both of her feet went through some treatments, so she has to stay in for a few days.

The Devil! A major card. It indicates greed. On the Robin Wood card it shows two people pulling on a treasure chest in opposite directions. The chest is also chained down. The way out can be seen, but greed causes these people to be unable to free themselves. First thing that caught my eyes was the exit out. Second, a crown in the chest (not sure what it meant.) Third, the monkey trap on the lid of the chest. The chest is open and treasures are free for the taken if they would just take whatever they can and leave. But they want all and so like the chest they are chained down by their own greed. This greed can be any unhealthy attachment or desire. Basically, I am cautioned to see clearly what in my life that is stuck and why. Today is probably the day this will surface to the top.

Update 04.01.2006, 7:27 AM, I have to admit, I have been obsessed with knitting and blogging lately. Well, not so much knitting. I’ve been knitting for a few months now and it is becoming more of a calming experience. Blogging is something else. I think about what to blog, I want to read other blogs, I want to find more blogs, I want to connect with other bloggers.

Now, don’t think that it’s really bad. It really hasn’t been bad. It is just taking up some time that some other things are not getting as much attention as before. Like meditation or calm reflections. The Devil from yesterday was a warning to balance myself. Do things in moderation (taking just enough treasure than leave.) I wonder if the crown that drew my attention yesterday has turned into the flower wreath of the Strength today?

Six of Swords means leaving troubles behind to me. On the Robin Wood card it shows a young man in a swan boat ferried by an invisible person, reaching for the land with a stone gate on the hill. There’s also a cave near the shore with a light like a star inside. I am drawn toward the stone gate and the light. Stone gate feels like security, the light is hope. Actually, Robin Wood calls the light the “light at the end of the tunnel.” The young man in the picture is leaving the troubled water behind for the security and hope of the land. In the reversed position I feel that the journey is delayed. The courage is not there to make the journey. I think I know what this is.

Update 03.31.2006, 8:10 AM, This is something that I need to take care of. Yesterday (Thursday) was the day that I told myself to get it done. But when the morning came I just didn’t want to deal with it. I had many excuases of course. But mainly it was the trip that I needed to make that put me off. Well, maybe I need some company… like my partner!

Four of Cups again! Why do the same cards show up time and time again? Maybe I need to look at my life pattern closely. Anyway, this time I feel it is more boredom instead of discontent. Also the person in the card seems to be turning away from the fourth cup, like he knows it is there but does not want to face it. He’s withdrawn into himself and need to wake up and look around and feel the life energies all around him. His bare feet touch the green earth and yet he is completely oblivious of it. Time to feel alive again!

Update 10:13 AM, Did I just tell myself to get a life? LOL

Update March 30, 7:39 AM, I know what the card was pointing out. There was something that I just didn’t have enough interest to deal with. I didn’t completely ignore it, but sure didn’t pay 100% attention to it.

Ten of Swords scares me. It indicates hitting rock bottom. The picture is a man bleeding on the ground. Stabbed by ten swords. In the reversed position it can mean the worst is over. In fact when I looked at the card it seemed that the sunlight was breaking through the dark clouds. The man on the ground almost seemed like he was trying to get up. I don’t have a clue what it is at the moment.

Update March 29, 8:14 AM I don’t know if I would’ve found this out so soon if not for the Ten of Swords apparing yesterday. Because of it I felt compelled to call my mom and see how she was doing. About a year ago she got a serious foot infection from getting a pedicure. The problem never went away completely. When it gets bad she would have to stay off her feet for a few days. She is visiting my sister in Taiwan. As soon as she got there her foot problem began again. She told me last night that the pain just stopped the day before. But she’s been seeing a doctor and he wanted to perform surgery to remove one of the toe nails. There’s a trouble spot that’s just not healing because it’s hiding underneath the nail. It is scheduled for today. Hopefully that will take care of the problem once and for all?

So the Ten of Swords can sometimes mean “under the knife” literally. This time it seems the outcome will be positive.

Funny that the King of Wands showed up today. Reversed. What can this mean? My partner is away in Germany. This card indicates bossiness, quick temper, arrogance, dogmatism. Can this still represent him with him so far away? I know he’s tired and he can get this way when the day gets tough. Or maybe it’s something else? We’ll see.

Update 4:34 PM I think this King of Wands Reversed is just a very tired King. He’s got the jet lag. It’s after 2:00 AM in Frankfurt and he’s out walking around as I type this.