This really reflects how I’ve been feeling all morning. The whole family is here for the Lunar New Year. Every time there’s a family gathering I go through this inner struggle. Remember the Five of Wands from Saturday’s reading? Yeah. The family get-together is it. I’ll write more as a note to Saturday’s reading.
Robin Wood’s version of The Devil has no actual image of the devil. On her card it is very clear that “greed” is the devil. Two people trapped in a dark tunnel, not bound by chains or anything, but by their own greed. They are free to go, but they just can’t leave behind a big chestful of treasures, and the chest is chained down. Still, they grab onto the chest and try to take it with them. The opening at the end of the tunnel shows blue sky and green hills outside. Birds fly free in the air. They can see it and maybe even want to be free. But their greed got the better of them, and they suffer because of it.
I want to run to the tunnel. If I can choose only one thing, I choose freedom. At the family dinner last night, the conversation was mostly about money and fame, self-praising. And that seemed to equate love and respect to them. I didn’t hear anything about love without having to pay for it. This happens every time, and every time I want to run as far as I can. It’s one thing if they just talk amongst themselves. But they always have demands. And if I don’t agree, I am being disrespectful to the family. Sorry. I just don’t play the game “money = love”.
While shuffling, Five of Swords popped out. And when putting the cards away I got a glimpse of Five of Wands. Hmmm… interesting. I have to see what the book says about the number five.
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